Today, I am fighting deep, dark depression. I feel like I have no one to talk to and no one understands. I don't want to talk to my friends . . . because I don't want to be the one they avoid. I try to talk to my family and they just try unqualify my feelings - or make me feel like I shouldn't have those feelings. I do have a lot to be thankful for - but sometimes really need to explor what I have to be happy for. With chronic health issues . . . it is very difficult to keep a positive spin on things. I am trying!